hellobrandy

I’m going to the Oregon Electric Station tonight for a meeting so we will be eating at this restaurant for dinner.. I need to pic ka good healthy choice and I don’t eat Beef, Poultry Or Pork… I’m kind of a vegetarian but I do eat fish and eggs.. Any advice would be WONDERFUL!

I have not blogged in a long time.. My SanDiego trip was awesome.  We spent the 4th at Sea World.  It was my first time in Southern California.  We went to the Zoo, Balboa Park, the beach, hung out with the fam.. it was so great to get away =)  The food was amazing, so many great authentic asian restaurants.   I will have to post some pictures up soon or you can view them on my myspace page hello_brandy@hotmail.com

I gained 3 pounds on my trip but quickly lost it and am now back down to 148.  this year i have only lost a total of 5 lbs but hey, I’ll take that!  I’m getting my routine back at the gym since I have not been there due to vacation and my personal schedule.. I really want to lose 28 lbs by this year which is very appropriate for my height 5′1 and I think I can do it.  It’s great because I am noticing that my thought process is gradually changing.. it’s not about the latest miracle pill. or the new fad diet, although they do tempt me!  I want to learn and live this healthy lifestyle, I want to be one of those old folks that are running at 8:00 AM and enjoying it because they know that this will keep their bodies strong!  I feel very happy with my life lately.. I know that I’m not perfect and don’t expect to be and I’m realizing that this is the reality.. not the movie stars on tv.. they are not real and honestly what have they done that is so great that we should idolize them, their looks, and their bodies?  The real people that deserve our attention are the people who are making a difference in this world.  My life is really coming together this year.. for once I’m just enjoying things.. I will be starting school again in the fall, I’m so excited to have a family in the future =) 

So my diet was pretty much non existent last night.  My family and family’s good friends family were over at my house.  My grandmother cooked some home made fried pot stickers, japanese cold noodle, and sushi rice.. Sooo good!  I knew that this was coming so I ate fairly well that day and decided that I would not pig out… but before I even walked in the door of my house I could smell the food  To sum it all up.. I PIGGED OUT.  After everyone had left and everything was cleaned up I knew that I was going to be paying for this on the scale if I don’t cut back for the rest of the week.  After everyone had gone home  I stayed up and made 0 point vegetable soup.   My plan was to eat extremely well today but I was running late and I decided to have just 2 little pot stickers… they were so good though that I had to have 3 more   I was thinking about bringing the rest to work and sharing with co workers so I wouldn’t eat them all but then I realized that if those baby’s were going in the car with me they were going to have NO chance of making the 15 minute drive  I was soo disapointed in myself.. On the way to work I just kept thinking about what the heck is wrong with me.. why do I feel like I can’t control how or what I eat?  Food is just food right?  It wont go anywhere, it’s not like I had to eat that whole bag (which I could have easily done if I had time) I can always make myself some more another time… Food should be fuel for our body’s not just something to gobble up like there’s no tomorrow!  And honestly, If I had only one day to live, I think that I would just eat whatever and however much I wanted and that’s really sad that that is how I would spend my last day.. that says a lot about my relationship with food don’t you think?  Everyday is a struggle and damnit, I’m getting tired of strugglin’

So I have kinda lost only about 3 to 5lbs since I last blogged.. When I say kinda I mean that I was 153 during my last blog, 3 days ago I was 148, and today I’m 150 LoL..!? Now that I’m looking at the numbers I guess I have lost 5 lbs but damn.. it feels like it is taking forever and since I can’t seem to permanantly get out of the 150’s I feel stuck!? I’m getting soo frusturated..!? I honeslty know that it is my portion control.. What can I say.. I LOVE TO EAT!? My trip to SanDiego is in less then 3 weeks and I’m DESPERATE to be 145 by then.? I have purchased some really cute cheap summer dresses on Craigslist that would fit perfectly if I dropped these few pounds.? I know that this is a lifestyle change but since I’m desperate I was thinking about doing something like Jo and trying to do Atkins for the next couple weeks.. I don’t know anything about it so I would have to do some research but what do you all think?? I was also thinking about just doign the slim fast deal - 2 shakes a day and one sensible meal for dinner.. or maybe switching to the core plan for weight watchers … I just don’t know, I want to do the thing that works the best What do you all think?? Untill I figure it out I will continue to work out 5 times a week at the gym.. I have only worked out once this week but I will make sure to go tonight, Saturday, and Sunday just to make it up.?

Tonight I’m going to a 21st Birthday dinner at Red Robins.? It’s pretty much a burger joint, pretty good food but definetly not figure friendly.? They do not have a nutritional chart on their website or anything so I’m going to need some help on deciding what to eat there tonight!? Take a look at the website and give me some of your thoughts…? http://www.redrobin.com/?

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?I was thinking the Apple Harvest Chicken Salad?

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? I have been doing good with weight, I have not been exercising at all this week because I have been sick and working a lot (someone just got fired) Strangely I have lost a pound, I was 149.5? this morning and I honestly think it is because of all the extra work.? It is not giving me time to be bored and eat at my desk.? So I want to keep that up, maybe drop the other .5 by Sunday so?I can actually contribute to the JAGS.? Got any?drink suggestions that are not?too high in sugar and calories and what not?? Shall I just?stick to beer?? ?

Second time typing this so here we go again..!

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So yesterday I had my free consultation with a personal trainer from my gym.  I went really well, I really was inspired.  We didn’t get a work out in because their scale that lets them know weight,body fat etc was broken so we re-scheduled for next Saturday.  I asked him about the packages and we talked for quit a while.  I think I’m going to do it, he was awesome about working with my financial status and told me I could do 3 sessions plus my free one, and a meal plan etc for $160.00, he said that he guarantees that I will lose inches.  He wasn’t trying to really sell me anything and wasn’t pushy either which I really appreciated.  He asked me a lot of questions about my goals and it made me feel like he really was interested in gettign me there and letting me know that my goals were totally attainable. I think I might do it.. we will see.  I have not lost any weight since November and I need an extra push or something!  I don’t eat bad foods a lot (my indulgence is something sweet every day) , my portions are probably larger then they should be with the food BUT I work out!  I know at least 5 people who are thin who eat whatever they want, and/or are mothers, and never exercise, and they are tiny! What gives?! 
I have been bouncing between 150 - 155in these 6 monthes..  All last week and yesterday I was 151 and all of a sudden today I’m 153.  I know I ate a lot of bread yesterday for dinner (that’s what I get for not planning ahead) but I cannot believe it showed up that fast . 
I have recently joined a weight loss team here on buddyslim and I really don’t want to let them down, I will do everything in my power to get back down by Sunday. 
Summer is around the corner and I’m really down today

Anyone have a Market Of Choice in their area?  I think I want to get a soup and a salad for lunch today, I really want the Mama Leonne’s (SP?) soup, it is so deliciouse!  I don’t know if it is very good for you though.. It’s kind of like a tomatoe base, maybe with basil or spinache?  and chicken, it is a little creamy but I dunno… Anyone have a clue what I’m talking about?  Thanks

8 more weeks until Summer!  I’m soo happy, I love the sun and being warm in general   I’m soo glad I wrote a countdown on my calendar, it is such a great reminder.  I’m really really really going to get my butt in gear this time, I PROMISE MYSELF and promise to you buddies that I will lose at least 5 lbs hopefully 10, but keep ya fingers crossed  8 more weeks until my vacation down to San Diego!  Yay  I’m soo freakin excited because I have never been that far down California and I just LOVE California..! I know I will love SanDiego.. If it wasn’t so gosh darn expensive I would probably move there in a heart beat.  We will be doing many out door activites including our trip to the zoo so I want to tone up a bit so I will feel more comfortable in some summer gear. 
My Goal:  For the next 8 weeks I will run 2 miles in the morning on my treadmill before work.  I will also go to the gym  every week day after work whether my work out team goes or not, and I will make sure to do something active on the weekends, something that I enjoy like bike riding or hiking.. I KNOW I can do this if I try, Wish me luck, I’m gonna need it!

I’m so young but I know I must appreciate and use the time I have to figure out what I’m going to do and want to do.  My life can go in so many different directions..  I have grown a lot and have connected, re connected, and disconnected with so many different people and friends.  I’m learning to let go of people from the past that are just not right for me anymore.  I’m 21 years old, some of my friends are almost finished with school, some are partying and not going anywhere, some users, some abusers, some are parents, others married… Everyone is changing sooo much.  I want to change too, I want to be a better person, get my career in check and figure out what I want to do with my life and what kind of person I want to be.  IT gives me a head ache sometimes when I think about everything.. I want to have a big happy family, something I have never experienced in my life, I want to be financially stable and take care of myself without any help what-so-ever, I want to have a profession that I like, I want to have less stress and just be happy.  Today I’m going to take a placement test at the College, it’s time, I’m so ready to get back into school and make more money.  I want to be happy and healthy, I want to not worry about my body and my fat, it is so exhausting to ALWAYS have it on your mind.  I want my life to mean something, I don’t want to look back and have regrets.

Just wanted to share with you all a great dinner I had last night.  I bought some pretty thin slices of boneless skinless chicken breat, spread a mixture of laughing cow cheese with green onions, salt, pepper, and fresh garlic onto one side of the chicken, de thawed some frozen spinach to put on the laughing cow cheese mixture, and rolled the chicken up.  I seasoned the outside of the chicken with salt and pepper then popped it into the oven.  It was yummy!  After it was done I shredded a little asiago on the top for some extra flavor ( alittle goes a long way!) and cooked some of Kari’s awesome carrots (you can find that recipe in the recipe section of buddyslim)  If you have not tried them you must, they are great!  For those on weight watchers, to make the carrots less points you can steam the carrots first instead of cooking them in oil , that will save you like 5 points and it tastes the exact same.  I just had to share because I had a creative moment that actually turned out good